Sunday, April 4, 2010

Nineteen

I felt you in my legs before I ever met you.

Never did I think I would care someone as much as I care about you, without having known them. I wanted to be with you before I even knew who you were. Your entire being attracted me, your personality, your mind, your hopes and dreams... I felt like I had known you for much longer than just a couple weeks.

And when I lay beside you, for the first time I told you, "I feel you in my heart, and I don't even know you."

And when I did finally see you, I loved you even more.

And now we're saying bye...

That goodbye was hard, It left me with a hollow feeling in my chest. This goodbye is going to be worse. It's going to tear me up inside-out. There's only one thing that's a consolation... it's all worth it. The pain, the heartache... One day it will be gone, and even when it's not... being able to be with you for just a while is worth it all. -It's not a goodbye. It's just a "See you later."-

Flew home, back to where we met. Stayed inside I was so upset... Cooked up a plan so, good except, I was all alone you were all I had. 

It took me days to recover. And I still haven't entirely. I can't wait until I can actually be with you again. See your smiling eyes, and be able to hug you. One day. It'll happen, I know it will. And that day is only getting closer.

Love you, you were all mine. Love me... I was yours right?

1 comment:

Thingsleftunsaid said...

I haven't cried in a long time. Even when we said goodbye, I felt like everything in my mind and my body shut down. I was just a shell for a day trying to make it home, but I kept it together for my brother. I didn't let it get to me.

It's a month and a half later.
I miss you so badly.

You'll always be my girl

Cue the tears.