Sunday, August 15, 2010

I Hold it all When I Hold You

Huh... six months. IF you take things literally, and say we've been going out since February 15th, then today would be our six months together... heh.

 First month
New and old emotions were alive at last. Free to be expressed, welcomed. Love was in the air, we were together.
"I know it's awful I'm gone. I know how you feel. All I have is a can top, a bunch of pictures, a jacket that still vaguely smells like you, and a whole bunch of memories.
But it's just the start. There is always more to come"

 Second month
Curiousity was blooming, doubts crept into our minds. Reassured whispers and loving voices to help us get through it.
"The thought of anybody longing for someone, thinking about them, counting the hours until the next fleeting days of paradise as strongly as I seems crazy."
"I guess we're both insane then."

 Third month
Hopes and dreams shared, new ideas created to keep our paths entwined. Heartache was deep inside us both, all we could do was count down the days together 'til we could hold the other once more.
"Time is moving quickly Lily. Before too long, I'll be able to be a part of your everyday life. I promise you. Until then, I'll wait however long it will take. Whenever it gets difficult or painful, just remember this- No matter where we are, or what paths we wind up following you'll always be everything I've ever wanted. I love you Lily."

 Fourth month
New experiences. Trust, honesty, caring for one another. Exploring the depth of what used to be a boundary. Summer was coming, and we knew we would be together.
"Do you think we can do it forever? simply this... Chris and Lily. Do you think we can do it?
"Yeah... if we stick together, and don't let each other fall."
"I won't let you fall, I promise"

 Fifth month
Time was ticking away, never were we as hopeful as now. Things perfectly in place, we knew we had a great time ahead of us. We did it.
"I don't know how the future is going to lay itself out for us, but I do know one thing: I've never been so sure about something as I am about you and I. You make me so happy, and so complete. I love you, don't ever forget it. We can do this."
"All the promises we made all those years ago are coming true again and again. It really was only just a matter of time, wasn't it?"

 Sixth month
No more waiting, no more heartache and dreams of being together. We had the chance to hope and live each day knowing we would wake up and see each other. Our goodbye was only a "see you later", and so it will be.
"It's the same night sky, no matter where you look at it from."

I don't know what I'd do without you, not only as my love, but as my friend. You've helped me and guided me through tangles I never thought I'd get through. You're an incredible person, and I'm so lucky to have you in my life.
I love you, darling. Let's try for a few more months, whaddaya say?